Leah and Me

I flip another page and my stomach starts to turn.

I pick up my phone. Maybe I’m running out of time. No.

Did I turn off the coffee pot?

Maybe I should…

No.

I keep reading, getting more anxious as each chapter ends. I almost convince myself that I’m just not that into it today and maybe I should put the Bible away until later. When I’m not as fidgety.

And then, Jacob sees Rachel and falls in love, and I know what comes next. I’ve always hated their story.

For the sake of Leah.

I didn’t realize until today just how much I identify with her. On the surface, there is no obvious reason. My relationship with my dad is great. I’m not married, so a disappointed husband isn’t the issue.

Leah knew she wasn’t beautiful.

She didn’t quite measure up to expectations.

Shouldn’t she be married already?

The list of emotions that I could give for poor Leah. And honestly, most of them are probably purely mine, but I do sense a kindred spirit in her.

Most days, I still don’t like what I see in the mirror.

I constantly fall short of the mark that I just know everyone on the planet is holding me to.

And really, shouldn’t I be married already?

BUT today I saw something that I had never really paid attention to.

I saw the way God treated her.

So tenderly.

God noticed her.

God loved her.

God honored her in a way that was oh so important in her culture. He gave her a son. And another one. And another one. In fact, he gave her six sons, and a daughter.

Reading her story today, for the first time, I felt hope. I felt loved.

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About Crystal

I am a disciple of Christ, writer, daughter, sister, aunt, friend, dog owner, and adventure lover.
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2 Responses to Leah and Me

  1. Aneta says:

    Great insights! I always had a soft spot for Leah, too.

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